To all of you who actually read or look at my blog or are not on facebook or don't know who on earth I am...I got a job and I am starting this Thursday!
Yay me...not sure if it is the position I want to be in, but it is the industry which I love and want to learn from...so I have a lot to learn even if it means doing a lot of admin ( grrr) and very little creative stuff.
For that I'll have to work on my diploma which has sadly taken a back seat and I have two months left of it.
I'm 32 now, employed and have a lot of changes to make. I have huge flat stuff to sort out like new furniture, a big plumbing job and a bit of a big clean out.
I have work clothes and shoes to buy and then the same things that I have been blathering on this blog for months & months...finding balance.
It's not easy yet it is easy. I just need to give more time to some things and less to others and work out exactly what they are.
There is a lot of give, a lot of feeling a bit pulled but I figure everything flows and works out...even if it is not planned!
I mean look at this; in the last two months, I have made 3 new friends, temped and found work in an industry I love.
I have been lazy and now have a huge plumbing problem, still have savings left and have kept trying to maintain a sense of balance between my friends, family and my own needs.
Some days I am really good at it and some days I wish I could close my eyes and completely deny because I wasted money or I was selfish or tired....
My biggest thing is this blog has been finding the art of balance because I truly believe that with it; I will have more focus, shiny hair, perfect white teeth and incredible focus. I picture reading a book, cooking a gourmet meal, spending time with all the people I need to, working, getting my 40 mins exercise and getting a good night and then I chastise myself for not! Some days I have no idea what on earth I did but looking back - I feel good about everything.
Even the selfish bits which I am learning that everyone has to and needs to be. I am certainly not going to turn into the most perfect focused women but I still am going to carry on learning and growing and carrying on and messing up big time and hoping that now I am 32 and the flat will stop leaking and I have a job...things will even out once more.